It's been a hot minute since I posted last 🤷 life eh? Today I walked my baby to her first day of Kindergarten. She skipped right in and only stopped to tell me that if I start to miss her that I can find her favorite teddy bear on her bed and can hug it any time! How am I so lucky to raise such incredible human beings?!?
I kept my shit together, politely smiled and waved at all the other moms and dads dropping there little ones off to their first day.
Got in my car and as I rounded the corner out of the school parking lot it hit me like a ton of bricks! I cried real alligator tears!! This is the beginning of a new chapter of life and I'm not sure that I fully enjoyed every word of the last chapter! I don't feel ready to close it yet! I thought back to each one of my kids first days and my heart twinged a bit, I thought about the moments I had alone with each child as the other entered school, their presence making letting the others go a little easier. But this is the last...there is no other little one to go home and cuddle. It truly is the beginning of a new chapter. I've thought about this day many times and how much I will get done and how amazing the quiet time will be but I didn't ever think of letting that stage of life go.
I text my amazing husband who always supports me and more importantly puts things into perspective for me when I get caught up in emotions. He reminded me that whatever happened in the last chapter was the best I could do in those moments. (Read the four agreements if you haven't already!) And I had a eye opening moment. Yes, closing chapters are hard but if we focus on writing the story of the page we are on there will be no heartache when turning the page. Because we will be present in each word written of our story. We can intentionally enjoy each moment taking place and live more fully in the now! And my momma heart soothes knowing that closing one chapter only means opening a new one full of opportunities to make each moment great! 💙💙
Smile and drink some water!! 💙
