Learning to love the way He made me. 🩵

I am a rather rebellious person by nature. Tell me I can't/won't do something and I'll bet my bottom dollar I'm doing the opposite. I guess raising me could have been alot easier on my parents had they applied the old reverse psychology trick on me. I have learned this cute little fact about myself, and have asked God many many times in my life why He would curse me with such a trait. I think it's like my inner self wants to do the opposite to see who will still love me at the end of the day. Ugh, toxic I know haha. 

Knowing this and praying for help has changed my perspective just ever so slightly, that it's no longer a part of myself that I hate. I have learned to navigate it, and use it for good. Being rebellious also makes me a "why" person. Because if you tell me to eat broccoli I'm gonna say no. But if you tell me that broccoli is high in vitamins, high in fiber and is antioxidant, I'm probably gonna say heck yes let's eat it for every meal! 

It also has caused me to ask why on beliefs and practices that I've been taught are correct from the very beginning of my mortal experience. Like, why shouldn't we drink coffee? (It lowers your vibration) Why should we read the Book of Mormon everyday? (It raises your vibration) Why shouldn't we curse, get tattoos, speak ill of others, etc. And also why should we go to the temple, west our garments, refrain from alcohol, etc. 

I'm not completely okay with "blind faith". And God made me that way. I believe it takes all kinds of kinds and apparently my kind has to ask really hard questions, and make really hard mistakes, and come to really hard answers. 

And my friends, isn't it just absolutely beautiful that God made us all different to help all kinds of kinds on their journey back to Him. ❤️

Love, Shelby