Pressure

 One thing that I realized way too late in my journey, is the truth that we all put way to many boundaries and pressures on ourselves. When I started to look at the walls I had built and the expectations I had placed on my existence, I was shocked! 

I had placed so many expections of myself, it was no wonder I was slowing dying under the pressure! I had the typical woman standards, (being thin enough, pretty enough) and the normal mom worries, (is my home clean enough, am I doing enough for my kids, I have to balance everything, perfectly, alllll of the time!) And wife worries...(does he feel loved enough by me, am I giving enough, am I making him happy enough). But the ones that really broke me down were the small ones I didn't even realized I had placed upon myself! 

I have been so unsure about myself the majority of my life that I placed expectations on how I talked, laughed, smiled. Expectations on the thoughts I had, the goals I needed to make, the way I ate my food! How I folded my laundry, how well I kept my cupboards organized. How absurd!!! 

I had so little love and confidence in myself that I tried to be ANYBODY else, think like someone else, talk like them, respond like them, that I didn't even realize, trying to be something that I wasn't, was NEVER going to bring me happiness! 

I challenge everyone reading this post to find one stupid expectation that you've placed upon yourself and release it! Let it go! I set the intention of this post to be cleaning and healing of all those that read it! That you may find a feeling of comfort and love for yourself! Thanks! 

Much love to you beautiful human beings! Remember to breathe, and find the simple joy in life! 💙